too much

When I feel overwhelmed by my life I tend to turn to the most accessible resource that's the least likely to actually change my behavior: Google. A while ago I had found some lists (my favorite kind of resource) that number off good habits to improve your quality of life. At times where is seems there a mess at every turn, I really appreciate these lists. It's a way to window shop my way out of taking responsibility for the chaos I chose to live in. But, I wish I had the consistency and the determination to actually enact some of these things. I like living in Lake City because I feel removed from some of the madness of the city. But, I tend to pile on an extra of helping of madness every couple months or so, like cramming a big slice of chocolate cake into my mouth when I'm already full.