swinging back

I think every fall I find myself in the same place. This is usually my time to regroup and come down from the high of summer. (Although last year there wasn't much of one since there wasn't much of a summer). And this summer is all the more pivotal in this transition. I feel a little like I need to re-learn how to be an adult. This last summer was awesome but I have definitely neglected plenty of responsibilities in the duration. I think that's okay every once in a while, as long as you come back to earth and reclaim some sort of claim on your life. And these transitions are always the best for me. A chance to live up to my full virgo potential (or so I hear) and attempt to organize the shit out of some as impossible to organize as living. But a challenge I'll accept nonetheless! I can't get over how much I love fall, I think more than summer even. Summer is a time to live without excuses or apologies, even though you should probably be making plenty of each. Fall is a time to cut back the garden, clean out the gutters, mow the lawn one last time and then know that you are relieved from the responsibility of outdoor work. It's one last hurrah for all the stuff you were "going to do this summer" and then a wonderful peace that comes with knowing that this is the time for soups and walks and decorations and pies and family and friends. Three months of it! January and February are their own problem but, until then, it's the best time of the year. And this year (2009! dear god) it's a chance to recover from some blunders (ahem, Public Safety) by hopefully putting it all out there when it counts (Burien) and keep that ace in the hole with fungers crossed (Tacoma). But, this year, as opposed to years passed, I feel more in the driver's seat. I think I know more what I want and am trying to learn the patience that is necessary when you have a narrowly focused desire. Patience has never been a strong suit of mine. I mean, I'm actually super miserable at it. But, this year, more than most, I am learning it or it is learning me, but regardless, I'm getting it.