2010 is rolling

I guess time does just move faster as you get older. Sometimes it occurs to me that I am 26 and I can't believe it. It's not that I think 26 is old, but it is here fast and makes me wonder what's just around the corner. The day-to-day rolls by like a dotted yellow median. I spend most of my days the same. I cook some food, look at a couple crossfit websites to see what's what in the world of toolish fitness, drink way too much coffee, talk to my dogs like they're humans who just prefer to lounge on the carpet, feel frantic at work, workout and lay in my own sweat for a while, wish I was eating a bowl of ice cream or a plain donut with another unnecessary cup of coffee, always have my looming interview in the back of my mind until I crack open my notebook to study and allow that excitement and worry to rush to the forefront once more. This interview has me so eager and so nervous. I can't really think past it right now, as I shouldn't. But, it's definitely consuming my time, whether I am thinking about it or actually preparing for it. T minus 7 days until I get another crack at being a firefighter. Gotta keep the faith. I definitely don't believe in being passive in the face of hopes but, on the flip side, I have to be thankful for the way things have turned out for me so far. I have good friends, the red truck I always wanted, the dogs I knew I'd have one day, a consistent way to stay fit that I actually enjoy, being able to stay involved in rugby in a less job-threatening capacity than playing... I'm satisfied with where I am at. I can wait for the farm. Last year I started getting very disgruntled with my hopes of becoming a firefighter. I was one year into the testing process and seeing a lot of brake lights in the hiring processes. I went back to playing rugby that summer as a way to latch on to something that I love while feeling something I wanted badly pull away. But, with Burien's process and Seattle's continuation from their list gives me some hope. Portland, Bates, National Testing are all rolling around again. I won't rest easy until I've been hired and passed probation but it feels better than it did last year, more possible. This feels like the last piece of the puzzle for this part of my life. I know you never reach the horizon but this goal is so deeply set that it feels like I'm finally moving faster than it's moving away. But, we'll see how this next week goes first.