round eleven...

Back in Portland. The trip home was bittersweet. It was great to see everyone and to know where I was without having to consult a map. But, it was a hard reminder that this endeavor is only just beginning and I have more than a few months left to keep my head down and work hard to earn this position. I'm excited for the idea of someday being able to go home for a week and really relax. I was a bit of a shithead this past week. Ask Jackie. I've been wound pretty tight since last weekend. I started thinking about UW Rugby and was really proud of their asskicking they gave Eastern WA. Then I started wishing I could have seen it. And it was bad news bears after that. I couldn't quite pull myself out of this pity party I've been throwing since then. And, for what? A sweet job that's not that far from home. I think it's just the stress of it all. But, I've been really testy because of it. Sullen, moody, snappy. Who wants to hang out?? I had a really good long talk with Miranda today on the phone and she helped me get some perspective. Now it's 9:13 and bedtime. Being a jerk really wipes me out. Got to get my beauty rest for my big day tomorrow. Day 40. If I invited you guys to the blog it's because I decided I want to write a bit more but I had to make it private so I don't risk anything by posting this online. So, there.