windy, rainy, so full

Well, it's a typical Wednesday night at the Zimmerman/Canine household. I am wanting to barf because I came home starving (only ate two eggs on toast, a bagel with cream cheese, toast with bananas and peanut butter, lasagna and about six gallons of coffee mixed with hot chocolate, of course I was hungry) and proceeded to eat cottage cheese, a huge rice and bean and spinach burrito and then a bowl of ice cream. We have already been warned about getting fat when training is over and we continue to eat at the rate we currently eat. I believe it because this is what I ate on a day where all we did was PT for half hour this morning and then sat in the classroom all day, no drilling or anything. I've already been feeling my pants get tighter during the last two weeks of mostly classroom. It's hard to eat less though because you really put it away when you're active all day long. And that will start again next week. We begin the grind down to finals and will be out on the drill ground all day long probably until mid-December. That will be great as far as my waistline and mood. But, holy cow, it's supposed to be in the twenties next week so that could be interesting, especially if it snows. Climbing the fire escape could be interesting, especially with all the extra gear we now carry up it during out evolutions. But, like everything that stresses me out with this training I chose to not think about it until the time comes. So far that has worked (mostly) for my mental well-being. I don't think I can plan too far out in this job because everything is so unpredictable and I find that thinking makes me worry and worrying makes me suck. If I just take the hurdles as they arise I find myself much more clear-thinking and ready to clear them.

So, I am full from eating too much. And Suzy is staring at me. She has been outside for a couple short walks this week. It's been pouring and raining and nasty. And it's dark when I get home so I don't want to do anything. She has tonight and tomorrow to bottle up that energy and then we'll hopefully get it burned off over the weekend. I am also procrastinating on studying for our test tomorrow. I should not. But, I just want to get in the bath tub and crawl into my bed. Instead I need to bust out my notecards and get on that horse because our last two tests were tough and it's no time to relax. Getting down to 1/3 of the way through training. I can barely believe it.