Almost fooled that spring had sprung

Today was the first day in a long time where I felt sort of like my old self. It was sunny, which helped. It was the first of my two days off, which really helped. I did not get fired yet, which always helps. So, it started off on the right foot. I chilled out this morning, read a book, talked to Al, ate 3 breakfasts. Then I ran a few errands with the dogs and went to 1000 Acres. I ran into two gals who work for the fire department out there. It was very random but neat to talk to folks outside of work and outside of my class. Then I met up with another gal with the department who helped me initially with my interview. We chatted about how things are going. I headed home, grabbed a couple things for my truck, and am now here making chicken soup (sorry Al) and getting ready to watch a movie. I have not cracked the books yet, which makes me nervous in a backburner sort of way. I feel guilty when I actually enjoy a day not as work as if it's a day off. It seems like I am supposed to do anything but study when I'm not at work. But, then I swing into a mental space where I feel like if not being a psycho on my days off gets me through alright during work then what's the harm? It's a daily battle amongst myself. Today the lazy side won out and I am very happy for that. I loved feeling like a human. I was more relaxed then I have been in weeks. I don't have a lot more to say. It was just a good feeling today and I am grateful for that.