crazy heart

I had a thought today. A couple actually. I guess that happens when you walk up a hill with two dogs and a whole lot of trees. I suppose it's maybe because it's summer now, or because the god awful training is finally in the rearview. Or maybe it's the looming possibility of getting out of the city for good. But, I thought today that I'd really like to take in the next year, the next ten, or however many I'm given. For someone who can't stop worrying about the future I really did learn something from the present today. It was warm, quiet, easy to get along with. I have a bad habit of getting caught up in preparing like a piece of yarn in a loom. I don't know how long it will last but I had this thought when I was watching a movie, Crazy Heart. Dad and son were out lake fishing at sundown and I thought that looked pretty good, and I'd like to get a boat and sit on the lake. Then, I remembered that I had a good day as is, without a boat, and that, when that time came, it'd be the right time to have a boat. It was a novel concept to me. I tend to get a thought in my head and can't settle until that thought's been played out. That habit is going to have me being 50 before I know it. I'll probably get a lot done in the meantime but I don't think I'll know I've done it. I think I've gotten enough done in the past year to be able to take the rest some time off. I just need to finish what I've started and I think the rest of it will be on hold. Feels pretty awesome to feel that way.

Old man Charlie was a champ today. He badonkadonked his way up that mountain like a good ol' boy. He had a moment where he went down after some chipmunk or something or other and had to climb his way back up a steep slope. That took the wind out of his sails for the rest of the hike down, but luckily down it was. He slept outside until just about half an hour ago. He really likes sleeping out in the driveway or yard. I think he'll like being able to have that option at the new place. A whole 5 acres to piss on and sleep outside, paradise for an old hairy man.

Speaking of which, I am so excited to move to the new place. I can't believe how quickly it's arriving. Stuff just keeps falling into place. Someone was out yesterday and today installing those damn tie-downs so we can get the financing. The engineer has a check in the mail and an appointment for Thursday. The IDA decided not to kick me to the curb afterall and I can get a check next week from the sound of things. Crazy how it's all working out (you bet I just knocked on wood, little fairies stay back).

My dogs are out like I shot them both dead in the living room. Buster is somewhere in the wilds of the Gresham/Portland border. Lily has shit just outside the litter box twice this evening. I think she came in from outside to do so. And both times it was liquid. Pretty awesome, having indoor cats. I'm not living like this at the new house, no way jose. No dirt slippers or hairballs everywhere you turn, or ants, or bowel movements. I'm not enjoying it.

I did enjoy today though.